Whatever

Ever had one of those times when you knew exactly what you should do, what you want to do but can't decide if you should hit the Green button to Go? Plenty, I'm sure. I was stuck between a rock and a very hard place many hours ago. Not knowing how I should hit the button, I asked for advice. And knowing very well that the advice wouldn't be easy - which is why I asked for it in the first place - I didn't get very satisfactory answers, which was just as well. Fine. What I didn't expect was the sudden outburst of internal withdrawal from the advisor. From openly giving advise, to getting me slightly agitated, then asking if I would like to talk about it again, to ignoring me totally as if I didn't breathe in the same area of air. "This reveals a profoundly philosophical bent in these dogs that were not mine, because they had worked out that I had to be there in order for them to be able to ignore me properly. You can't ignore someone who isn't there, because that's not what 'ignore' means." - Douglas Adams, The Salmon of Doubt. If there's anything I hate alot, that's ignore. People ignoring my presence to be precise. I do not understand where I've gone so wrong sometimes. And if I were to be correct in the understanding, the person in question later commented that he is somehow angry because he is unable to provide me with good advice? Given that, how was I to react? I seemed to be the instrument for the advisor's inner anger expulsion rather than object of comfort. I storm off. I later apologized for bad behaviour - though I still very much believe in my rights to anger - and was brush off by a "up to you", which roughly translates to whatever and in which I replied with a whatever too. So much for making up for bad behaviour. Seems like, I do not always have the right to anger. Perhaps it is even believed by some that I asked for it. I beg to differ. And while still begging to differ, I think I should just stop asking for advice, which translates to asking for it again. There really is no point, which again and perhaps translates to whatever.