The Shape of Concern

I supposed the post about Neil Gaiman can wait - till tonight at least. Was suffering from what I thought was an incurable depressed state of mind just now regarding my upcoming job search campaign - I'm 70% cured of it now thanks to some nice person who has low self esteem - only knew about an hour ago that it is scientifically proven that low self esteem people are nice, no wonder I'm not. I have an ego problem. I am worried about it no doubt with all the unbalanced problems in clear sight but I'm still rather confident of my chances. There really is no need for kind hearted souls (sis, I'm talking about you, yes you're appearing in my blog now in a bad time as a bad person) to lay things out so transparently and in a way so negative. Concerns come in all odd shapes and sizes and I supposed usually not all the types that we normally asked for. I mean thanks for the concern but I can handle things my own way thank you very much until I break down or ask for some, help should really stay a few steps away - which is not to say all helps are bad, I think I'm contradicting myself and confusing people, oh well. Offer me help though when I start doing this. Anyway...erm...I supposed there is no anyway here. All I wanna do now is to get my asp.net up and running and kick start my job search campaign next week. Speaking of which, I'm not too sure if I should be updating that in here coz for a person with some ego problem - ME - failures are neither meant to be READ aloud nor in PRINT. I'll update the success though. In the meantime, it'd be more ramblings, complaints and of coz Neil Gaiman - sorry man, you've got to be slightly delayed.