Day 7 - I Will Survive

If anyone has cared or wondered what I had been doing recently - thus the lack of posts - well, I'm out of job now or rather soon to be. I've handed in that letter in a white envelope on Tuesday and am serving my one month notice now. Had wanted to stay on till at least end of the year but then what the heck, if I'm already suffering some kind of minor brain injury due to the lack of substantial thinking work then why not? It's kind of a now or never thing. I've yet found a job or even started my search for the next cash generating rice bowl. Don't say I'm cool about it and not worried. The truth is, I really am shivering to my bare bones at the thought of having to start the whole job searching cycle all over again. Also, I do have the other common worry of not being able to find a job - I am human afterall, however much I'd love to act all cool and nonchalant about the whole event. There is the oh shit I'm in the IT line and am so backward in the current technologies and such. The oh no, how much will the next company pay me, can I find a better paying job or one that is even equivalent - though I'm not really paid that much now. The whole lorry load of thoughts has been shadowing me since Wednesday - the kick at saying "I Quit" lasted only a few hours. However, I supposed the consolation came from realizing that hey, my family aren't really that against my decisions anymore. I had flipped in bed like a prata in the stove for nights visualizing the things they'll say, the faces they'll make. Nothing. They were well, ok to it. No "how can you do this without first getting a job?!" blah blah which in turn made me kinda guilty. I really should have secured a rice bowl first. I am afterall a working, thinking woman of 26, no longer 16. BLEH! Enough negative scribbles now. The good news from all these is that I've finally moved my butt slightly to take that first step to upgrade myself. I'm now on day 7 of the 21 days to ASP.Net book which is about 800 pages thick - thanks to Mr Smurfie for lending it to me, it's really heavy. For the first time in my life, I'm actually adopting my friend, Eric's way of learning new things - something which I've scoffed at - reading and following the exercises in the book, cover to cover. No longer taking shortcuts, I'm actually working step by step now. I wonder how long this patience will last. In the meantime, just help me keep your fingers crossed ok? Back to the book and more aspx exercises now. Day 7 here I come and I'll hopefully survive.