It's A Men's World

Tashes is leaving!! - How many times do I have to repeat myself? She's really leaving. I feel myself slowly turning into a man. A manly man. Surrounded by stupid men. Becoming the man in the company of these men. The one desperate to get things up and running. I used to be surrounded by men too. That was when I first came. They were fun. They treated me as one of them. Didn't feel like a man though. Just felt like one of the guys. They were kind to me, took care of me and made sure I had all areas of work covered. The men left. A gal arrived in their place. She in turn brought other gals along. Gals lingering outside our bridge. Never having the chance to come in for interaction. The bimbo group of four was born. We had fun. Nobody really took care of anybody but we were for each other. There was a man too. A man that joined immediately after the gal. He was not worth mentioning. There was never a time I can mention him without trying not to burst a few veins. Then one of the gals left. The 3 of us left, tried having fun and we did. Though the regular soup parties, msn chats, peer pressuring blog updates were really missing in action. These activities instead were replaced by daily game breaks at lunch. Now that the gal within the bridge is leaving. I feel hints of emptiness slowly creeping up to me. The skies are turning gloomy. I'm compelled to be silent. To be the man in this manly world.