What Happened

I'm a nobody. Doesn't anybody get that?? Do I have to point a gun at their heads to make sure they understand nobody reports to a nobody and I simply don't know anything. Being here 4 months earlier than the rest doesn't mean I'll know every bot and nut in this place and every single history that has ever happened before. Being 4 months earlier doesn't guarantee me being more knowledgeable, wiser and such. I'm frustrated. I don't know how to deal anymore. Everything and everyone is a DUH in IMPACT, bold and font size 72. I'm really irritated. Get me out of this damn place. I'm going crazy. I'm no longer happy. All happiness in my life has fled. What happened? I was unhappy with the management but overall still happy with my life here coz I had friends, coz I had happy times, coz I was enjoying myself nonetheless. What happened to those happy elements? What happened? I lost all happy vibes. I'm an empty shell of what I used to be. There's no sharing of jokes, laughter, work and stuff anymore. I don't even know what I'm doing anymore. I don't like anything. I'm depressed. I need to get out. What is the world turning into? I NEED OUT! I truly, truly dislike this place to the tip and the bottom. What is wrong? What has happened? I don't know who I am or what I am anymore. I'm nobody. And strangely, nobody understood that. Maybe they do but they just didn't care either.